Saturday 1st February 1964
– Mimi: “My Beloved, how I would have liked to receive You this morning! How I suffer! I have no news from my director. My Beloved, I believe in You and in the word of the Holy Spirit. You said that R… would become member of the Team on the 2nd of February. In spite of all appearances, I believe that You will go and fetch our director for this occasion. Thank You for sending me W… and R… Together, we waited, hiding our sorrow by laughing. Hours went by! No news. My enemy did not stop tormenting me saying:
– Satan: “You see! I was right in telling you that you were writing lies. Look! You pretend that R… will become a member of the Team. You have had no news from your director. He won’t come. The time has come for him to understand the situation.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I place my confidence into Your hands. May Your Holy Will be done in me and I accept everything out of love. My Beloved, we are looking forward to tomorrow so much! We are confident. We believe in Your word. With You, nothing is impossible, ô God Almighty!...
The day went by hiding our sorrow. Thank You for helping us offer everything up with love. And to pass the time, we took the time to relax instead of weep. This helped us laugh heartily. My enemy raged at seeing the way we accepted this trial. Finally, everything seemed over for us. We had to wait until tomorrow for news. Totally resigned, we waited with confidence.
Finally our director arrived in the evening around 8 pm.”
– Mimi: “Thank You, my God! What joy to find ourselves once again close to him. My enemy was disappointed by this beautiful unexpected visit . Thank God!”
Sunday 2 February 1964
Feast of the Purification
– Mimi: “Thank You, my God for giving us a Mother so pure and who loves us!
“Ô Immaculate Virgin, please ask for me the purification of my soul, of my spirit, of my heart, of my whole being. May all be purified: my prayers, my work, my writings, my sufferings, my joys, my sorrows, my death. I place everything into Your arms so that You may offer everything to Our Father. I am so pleased to receive You, ô Blessed Trinity!”
– Mimi: “I am so anxious to receive You after having fasted for five days! What sublime moments We spent together after communion! One hour and a half speaking to You, but especially listening to You! I would have liked my thanksgiving to have lasted all day.
Such a moving moment for us!!! After Team work, prayers, etc., we were so pleased to offer everything. Our director was very generous in spite of his fatigue! He has given us an example of what it is like to give everything out of love. How I suffer more at seeing him suffer! When seeing him in action, I forget all my little sufferings.”
– Jesus: “Yes, My Beloved, what you are suffering is so little compared to what I endured out of love for you. Today, I rejoice. How filled We have been, how consoled and honored this afternoon seeing the whole Team at work! How many souls you have saved! For with your merits, the other members merit also by taking on a large portion. We take on everything: love and suffering, to purify them. Thank you, My dear children! R… was overwhelmed for the first time. Thank you for your generosity, thank you especially for your love.
My Beloved, have you recovered from your emotions? Wasn’t it beautiful? What will Our perfect union be like? In the meantime, continue to offer everything out of love.”
Monday 3 February 1964
– Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved for helping my director. I was able to receive You. I am so happy about the happiness I received yesterday. My Beloved, after such sublime moments, it is so painfull to face reality. Is it possible for my heart to contain so much love?”
– Jesus: “Yes, My Beloved. For We are One and My love is infinite. Now you understand perfectly what it is like to be a victim of love. It is nothing compared to Our perfect union. No matter what you may suffer, I will always be with you as I was yesterday. We have such a need to be loved, consoled, plus there are many souls to be saved.
The Ecumenical Council is not finished. We need you, your sufferings in order to cooperate with Me. We need your love to console Us. We are so happy to have Our little Team of love in which there are little souls that are so sincere. The bond that I have established in your souls will be greater after your death. Each member will feel it and Our Divinity will be glorified because each soul will receive in abundance Our graces, Our love. You will be witnesses of My merciful love. Do not hesitate to speak about Our love, Our intimacy with souls. You must make known what love in suffering, in resignation to the Holy Will of Our Father is about. There is greater joy to accept than to refuse, to give than to receive. Many thanks, once again, to the whole Team for loving Us, for working with Us for the salvation of souls.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, it is for Us to thank You for loving us, for accepting us in spite of our unworthiness. I do not include my director.
– Jesus: “My Beloved, it goes without saying. You know what I think of your comments.
Tuesday 4 February 1964
– Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved for all that You give me. However, increase my hope, my faith. My enemy does not stop tormenting me. My Beloved, please deliver me from his lies. My God, everything is against me. There has been an increase in my rent. In such circumstances, this becomes a problem for us. I beg You, my Beloved, allow us to keep Our home. Think of Your little Team of love. We want to work but we need a place where we will be secure. Think of the happiness we have in our little sanctuary where You have come so often to work, pray with us and also console us. My Beloved, I abandon myself into Your arms. If it be Your Holy Will, allow us to remain in Our dwelling and have the money to pay for it. I wouldn’t want my companion to suffer and have a hard time. She is so good to me in spite of her attitude in the present situation.”
– Jesus: “Yes, my Beloved, she is a good instrument who works well. Thank you, My dear little children for your delicate attention towards her. Sunday, We were happy to see you receive her at your table as an important guest. This is what true charity, pure love is about! My Beloved, if you received much, Sunday, it is because you accepted to live this critical situation where Our instrument is accomplishing faithfully what We want and have foreseen for you and for the sanctification of your soul. This way, We can act freely for there is emptiness in you and around you. You are enriched by Our love and filled by Our suffering. Humanly, you are crushed by your cross, but with Us you will triumph with Our cross.”
Wednesday 5 February 1964
– Jesus: “My Beloved, come with Us today. We are going to visit Our dear little spouse, C… She needs Us. I would have liked to allow you to rest a little but for the time that you have left, We want more. It is the most precious time for you, for souls, for the Team! Each second is calculated, each act of love is recorded, each suffering is received. Everything is counted in order to give greater glory to Our Father. How many souls suffer uselessly when a single act of their will could change their whole existence.
Why suffer alone when I am present? Why refuse My love that I give them? My Beloved, we must pray a lot for sinners but especially for the dying. The last moments are of utmost importance. If persons in the presence of these poor souls could see the state of their soul! These persons would allow those who take care of souls total liberty to accomplish their duty without difficulty… Under the pretext of not disturbing the sick person… how many christians act this way during the illness of their loved ones! Others are continually at the side of the sick person and do not leave him a moment to think of Us and help his departure in prayer. Who can help a dying person by receiving visitors?
How many persons have died with secrets, sorrows, sins, because, in the presence of persons, they could not make a gesture, say a word to the persons who could help them spiritually. How many priests, religious could help these souls if the latter could speak freely.
Many persons in these moments are looking after their interests. They are afraid that a comment from the sick person might jeopardize their heritage. If these persons could scrutinize the bottom of hearts, see the pathetic state of some souls! Even after having received the Sacraments, souls need to be alone with Our representatives, with Us.”
Thursday 6 February 1964
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I will pray a lot for the dying. I confide all of them to my Gentle Mother of heaven, to Saint Joseph. My Beloved, at the moment of Our perfect union, grant me the grace, if it be the Holy Will of Our Father, that I have nothing to distract me, not too many eye witnesses. Keep my enemy away from me. My Beloved, I want to tell You today that if I am unconscious during the last moments of my life, know that I love You, that I thank You for loving me till the total giving of Yourself. Intercede for me, present me to Our Father. If my mouth cannot speak, listen to the hearbeats of my little heart as if they were acts of perfect love, of thanksgiving, of contrition. If my eyes are closed, open them to the celestial light. If my little head becomes heavy, place it near Your Divine Heart. If I cannot breathe freely, please help me with the breath of the Holy Spirit, with Your grace. May Your divine breath give me eternal life. If my limbs are unable to move, in the name of Our love, place them on Our cross where You have already attached me. Keep my body as a temple of the Holy Spirit. From this moment, I place my little soul into Your powerful arms. By Your Precious Blood, detach me from everything, from myself. With Your grace, I hope, I believe in Your infinite mercy. Do not permit me to disturb too many people, nor that it should cost too much.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, after having dressed you up for Our future union, do you believe that I am not capable of preparing Our great departure? Concerning the money that the members of your family will have to give for your service and at the cemetery, have no fear, this will give them the occasion to do something for you, that is, for your body, but for your soul, it is We and Your director who will have all the rights.”
Friday 7 February 1964
– Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved. It is a happiness that increases each time I receive You! My Beloved, why must we wait any longer before Our perfect union? I miss You so much especially after having spent such wonderful moments! I would have liked so much for the other members to share my happiness. Thank You for Your love and Your infinite mercy. What more can I do to please You?”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, continue to offer up everything, to accept everything out of love. You will need a lot of patience to endure in silence all that I will send you this week. Open your door to souls who will visit you today. You must be charitable and receive them with kindness if it tires you and tests you. I will be the One visiting you. For certain persons, it will be the last time they will have the pleasure of seeing you… Yes, My Beloved, give abundantly what you have received out of love. You must work till the last moment.
You have a mission to accomplish on earth. With Us, you will have another. For the moment, you must love Us, console Us, be docile to the inspirations of the Holy Spirit. With your frequent communions you are strengthening yourself in order to serve Us better. As a suffering member of My Mystical Body, you have a duty to fulfill. Your duty of state is to suffer out of love for Us, for souls, for the Church in order to obtain this christian unity in the love of God and neighbor. Charity is the law of love. If you love Us, you will love Our Church, the Holy Father.”
– Jesus: “Pray especially for His Eminence Cardinal Léger. His mission is so important for the souls. Help him with your prayers, your sufferings. He is so generous! He deserves it! We love him and watch over him, his mission as a Good Shepherd, for he gives his love and extends his confidence through his great charity. Near him, love and confidence is renewed.”
Saturday 8 February 1964
– Mimi: “Thank You! I have the pleasure, once again, to receive You, ô Blessed Trinity! My Beloved, please help me do our triduum in honor of our Gentle Mother of heaven and the apparitions at Lourdes. My Beloved, what is going on in my soul? I have never felt so lonely! I am sad, yet, in receiving You, I am so happy. But suddenly, there is emptiness. I cannot even pray and during the recitation of the rosary, I sleep soundly. In the presence of all events that surround me, I remain unconcerned. What I used to love, leaves me indifferent, music, etc. What are you going to think of me after so much goodness, so much love?”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, My dear little spouse! What I think of you is that you are now experiencing this preparation of detachment from the things of the earth and of yourself. Do you remember when you would ask your director the meaning of detachment from everything? He answered that one day, you would understand, that God had His hour. Then, with the help of the Holy Spirit, you began walking on another road, that of detachment. My Beloved, after our wonderful encounter of 2 February 1964, you are no longer able to live with the world, that is, during the time remaining, you must not be preoccupied too much by troubles, persons, things that surround you. With your neighbor, do not look too intently at the human side but rather the supernatural and spiritual side. Pray especially for the needs of their souls. Do not ask me so much to relieve people I am testing for their greater good.
Ask the Holy Spirit to enlighten them and give them the strength to accept everything out of love. May you lift up your soul to Us. May your spirit remain focused on Us so that your heart, your body may remain with Me on Our cross to the glory of Our Father, our unique Hope.”
Sunday 9 February 1964
– Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved for coming this morning. How I need You, Your help, Your grace to accept everything out of love. I beg You to enlighten me. I don’t even understand what You tell me, and in this situation I have to write it down. I only I know what You wish, what You expect from me. My Beloved, in spite of my unique desire to possess You forever, I tremble before these words: “This is your last time of Lent”. That was in 1963.
Does this mean that I will not begin to observe Lent? Or will I begin it without terminating it? Why do I have this fear at certain moments? With
You, I know that I will march joyfully towards Our Father. Is this fear an obstacle to Our future union?
Is this a lack of confidence in Your infinite mercy? Yet, You know that I don’t want to lose You, to offend You by doubting, because of discouragement. How I have to struggle in order not to give in to these ideas! If I could be sincere with myself when I make an act of faith before a situation, but no, on the contrary, there is emptiness. I feel flattened. I am like in prison where my soul is without light. I cry for help and I only hear the echo of remorse. I knock on the door to leave but I seem to be knocking on an iron door. My Beloved, where are You?”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, I am here, within you. I can see what you are doing. It’s quite normal. It is human detachment, the struggle, the battle before victory. My Beloved whom I so love, why do you want to strutinize Our Father’s plan concerning Lent? Put your trust in Us. This is all I can tell you to reassure you and satisfy your spiritual curiosity which isn’t good for a victim soul of love.
So, you will be at the precise place where We wan’t you. Wherever the place may be, you will be with Us in love through which you will experience peace of soul.”
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I’m sorry but I don’t understand. However, do with me what You will.”
Monday 10 February 1964
– Mimi: “My Beloved, thank You for helping us make this beautiful triduum. I am so happy to receive You after the day of moral suffering I endured yesterday. My Beloved, You desire the detachment of Our conversations. Lately, I have been preparing myself slowly for the separation from my writings. This morning, when my director spoke to me about it, I had a moment of hesitation, of surprise, of sorrow. I was like a mother from whom someone would want to kidnap the child she is carrying. For, my Beloved, these writings contain Our whole life, Our intimacy, all Our unveiled love that I have kept silent. Yes, this little life hidden to human eyes during which We were so happy to live together in love and suffering. How weak I am in moments of sacrifice!”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, how I understand you so well! I will tell you that this consoles Me for this proves that this intimacy was very real, very much alive in you. Otherwise, if all the writings came from you, you would not have grieved so much by giving them away. Now that your sacrifice has been offered and accepted by Us, you must now put things in order… I advise you strongly to review them before giving them to Our dear apostle Father Paul Mayer s.j. It is his heritage. Review 1956. Consider all that We have given you in abundance. Leave everything for souls! That is your mission to make known our merciful love, love in suffering with a total giving and Our intimacy with souls. These are the three ways of embellishing the soul and guiding it towards Us. Even its spiritual life will be affected for it will become humble, confident, submissive. The spirit and heart will be detached from everything. The soul will be filled with pure love.
My Beloved, one must not be selfish with the gifts received out of love. You have received much. You must give much for souls. My Beloved, it isn’t the end of everything. It is the beginning of everything. I will be with you. Our intimacy will continue to grow.”
Tuesday 11 February 1964
Feast of the apparitions of Our Lady of Lourdes
– Mimi: “I have the pleasure of receiving You!... Happy Birthday my Gentle Mother of heaven! Thank You for visiting Your children on earth. Ô Immaculate Virgin, protecte me. I need to feel secure in Your motherly arms. Please ask for me the strength and courage to follow Your Jesus till the total giving of myself, and at Your example, I accept the Holy Will of God over me.
With You, ô my Gentle Mother, I want to give my Fiat each day. I want to be generous in the service of God. I also want to be generous towards my neighbor. Help me better understand the humility of the heart, of the soul, of the spirit.Help me be very charitable towards everyone. Mediatrix of all graces, please ask for me pure love, yes, the love that God wants to give me.
My little heart is so cheap. I am so poor, so miserable. I am begging for love. My soul thirsts for Your Precious Blood, my Beloved. I hunger for You. The more I receive You, the more I feel the need to feed on You. I am never satisfied. You alone can fill this gap that is in me. I am always hungry for Your love, Your truth, Your mercy, Your justice and it is in Your Sacrament of love that I can find everything that I need to sustain my spiritual life and Our intimacy, to nourish me each day.
Yes, I am a beggar of love. I seek You each day. I look for You in my neighbor. I look for You in trials, in events. I find You always on the cross where You gave Your all out of love. Thank You for Your love. Thank You for Your Eucharist where I find the gentleness of Our intimacy.
Thank You for the beautiful visit that encouraged me so much. My Beloved, You are correct in calling him Your dear apostle, Your instrument. By this visit from Father Paul Mayer s.j., I better understood the importance of each soul in the Mystical Body. Yes, to be exactly where God wants us to be for His greater glory.”
12 February 1964
Ash Wednesday!
– Mimi: “I am beginning the blessed time of Lent! I am so happy to receive You.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, I also am happy after having received so many signs of love, of generosity. Thank you, dear children. How greatly inspired you have been by the Holy Spirit in offering Us these six days of communion! You could not offer Us more. Yes, two triduums prepared by sufferings and trials! You are happy but your happiness is nothing compared to Our joy of receiving such a beautiful homage from our little souls so loving and sincere.
In spite of his age, his illness, your director was courageous and generous. His love for Us is so great that he does not calculate the extent of his sufferings.
And you, My dear little spouse, how happy you are when We visit you! We are so overwhelmed that We cannot refuse you anything. What could We refuse a little beggar of love who is humbly asking for her food, that is, who needs Our love to keep on living? Come, My Beloved, and take refuge near Us and in the great depths of your soul cherish the delights, the gentleness, the peace of Our intimacy and receive fully all its virtues. If souls could seriously meditate and believe the following : “He who eats My flesh and drinks My Blood dwells in Me and I in him.”
– Jesus: “Is this not a visible sign of Our intimacy, of Our love? Yes. To want to dwell in souls and be united to them by a supernatural bond! If souls wanted to give Me first place in their lives, they would find rest, peace, love, confidence and their spiritual life would be renewed.”
Thursday 13 February 1964
– Mimi: “My Beloved, what can I offer You more than my love and my sufferings? With You, I want to do my best to smile when I would rather weep. Ô my Father, have mercy on me. I offer You everything with Your Divine Son. I unite my sufferings with Your Passion, Your merits, Your death so that You may be glorified, loved, consoled.
My Beloved, I thank You for being present in me. Thank You for Your intimacy where I can rest, strengthen myself from the fatigue of my illness, my sorrows, my disappointments that are so severe at times. Please give me the strength to continue on my road with You.”
– Jesus: “My dear little spouse, you must not be surprised. There comes a moment in life when one must stop and look where we are going, question ourselves about our ideal, examine ourselves about our duty of state.
But many souls don’t have the time to think about spiritual things, but about receiving a salary increase, reaching a human ideal, desiring to own riches, honors, health, pleasures. These souls don’t have enough time to calculate, to think about how and by what means they can reach their goal, even at the expense of great sacrifices, efforts almost impossible to make.
But to put their soul in order, they would have to stop for a few moments to consider where I am and where their love is. Very few souls visit Me out of love or affection. How many do not even know how to speak to Me! There are souls who use books to speak to Me, who speak to Me out of interest, who speak to Me with a preoccupied mind,who speak to Me with a cold heart, an indifferent soul.
These souls recognize that I am God, but no more. When we search for God in material things, it is more difficult toe find Him. In spite of all this, I look at all of them and I await with love and patience for their love, their good will.”
Friday 14 February 1964
– Mimi: “My Beloved, another day for You! Time seems endless before Our perfect union!”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, be patient! You must live one day at a time. Fear not! Each moment is a precious gift for Us, for souls. We are in such need of souls to console Us!”
– Mimi: “Thank You for such a great sign of love! How I need greater faith, but I am confident that with You, I will accept everything to console You and to cooperate in saving souls. Thank You for the beautiful surprise! I am so happy to know that I will be receiving You tomorrow.”
Saturday 15 February 1964
– Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved. I have the great joy of receiving You. Since I cannot go to church to adore You during the Forty Hour Devotions, I adore You present in me. Ô Divine Majesty! With my Gentle Mother of heaven, all the saints, the angels, I prostrate myself to adore You and to thank You for Your love, Your infinite mercy. Ô my Beloved, increase in me the love of suffering so that I may cooperate more closely with You in glorifying Our Father and for the salvation of souls.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, My little host of love, adore Me present in you. With your physical, moral, spiritual sufferings, your poor little body is for Us the most beautiful monstrance altar where We dwell night and day and that we keep forever.”
– Mimi: “Thank You for the beautiful visit of my dear little sister nurse. It seems that my poor little heart is very weak and yet, You are present, ô my Beloved. As long as there is Your love, there is life, and as long as there is life, there is hope. I am confident.”
Sunday 16 February 1964
– Mimi: “Another communion received! I am so happy to receive You this morning. See, my Beloved, how brave my director is! It is out of love for You and also because of the need of my soul that he has come.”
– Jesus: “My Beloved, I am well aware of his great love for Us and his conformity to Our Holy Will. His generosity has no limit and We are consoled by that. Follow his example so that you may be worthy of being his spiritual daughters and members of Our beautiful little Team of love.”
– Mimi: “Thank You for the beautiful visit of our dear R… My director came. There was Team work to be done. We offered everything out of love for souls. I hope that You accepted all of this, my Beloved.”
– Jesus: “My dear little spouse, why ask Me such a question.You know very well that We are but One. So, what is yours is Mine, and what you offer Me out of love belongs to Me forever. I know, My Beloved, that you have suffered greatly. I also wept with you. When I see you doing battle with your enemy and experience at the same time the three agonies of the heart, the soul and the spirit and seeing your poor little body suffer … and I suffer even more for according to the Holy Will of Our Father, you will have no respite. There are so many souls needing to be saved.”
My Beloved, whatever the state your little soul is in, be convinced that I am with you forever to help you fulfill your mission of making Us known in love and suffering through a great intimacy. And it is before Our dear little crucifix that you were able to understand My love. My Beloved, by looking intently at the crucifix, are you not discovering joy! It is so beautiful! Do you see the importance of Our intimacy, of Our love hidden to human eyes?”
Monday 17 February 1964
– Jesus: «Thank you, My dear children for this beautiful triduum of communions and of the beautiful Team work. It is so consoling for Us and so encouraging for you. With Me in your midst, you are secure and We give glory to Our Father through Our sufferings accepted and offered out of love. Yes, souls are costly. We cannot buy these souls without giving! Each one has an infinite value in the eyes of Our Father and the price varies according to the state of this soul, of its love for Us.
My dear little spouse, you are suffering more, but I am nearer still. You must not be surprised by your weakness yesterday. It is the usual state of a victim soul. It is love overflowing, it is the need to possess Me, to return to Our Father, it is the spiritual bond of the soul with Us, with God the Creator, the Almighty. And at times, the victim soul is so close to Us because of its love, its suffering, its intimacy! We would like to come immediately to fetch it.
We approach it with love to help it, console it, for the moment of separation is more painful than the waiting period. The soul affected by Our love cannot survive very long without Us, without Our intimacy, without Our presence. Even its human heart is affected… this soul needs a lot of patience to await Our hour and a lot of submission to Our Holy Will to continue on the road leading to Us with a smile on its lips and a heart filled with love for souls.
And to increase the merit and try its love, We withdraw Ourselves in order to see this little soul looking for Us, wanting Us. At times the struggle is fierce and the trial very difficult, but We are always there to sustain it.”
Tuesday 18 February 1964
– Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved for helping me through this trial. I know that I don’t understand everything but all that I ask is not to lose You, ô my God, my unique Love.”
– Jesus: “My dear little spouse, why would you want to lose Me? Am I not in you? I know, My Beloved, what you are suffering. I also went through the three agonies, without forgetting the agony of My Body. I accepted everything out of love for you, for souls. Yes, My dear little G… I could see in what condition you were. I could see all your miseries, your weaknesses, your sins, but I could especially see you with your love. From all eternity I wanted you. I gave you everything.
Today, in spite of this difficult trial, the dryness of your little soul, I am always present in you. We are One. Continue to offer everything up. If you are unable to speak to Me, look at Me. I understand. In the state in which We have placed you, remain confident in Us. The spiritual combat is not a question of feeling but of will. Yes, in spite of all the obstacles, to will with all ones might. Yes, to struggle without being discouraged until final victory.
Yes, with Me you will be strong, courageous till the end that will be the beginning of Our perfect union. No matter what you are suffering today… suffering passes but Our love remains and Our Father is awaiting you to live with Us for all eternity where Our happiness will be eternal. Pray a lot for souls that have to fight because their faith is blinded by sin and trials.
The victim soul is continually under Our care for all its possessions are Ours: joys, trials, struggles, victories. But Our love in it is always the same. The love of God cannot change. Are you happy now?”
– Mimi: “Yes, my Beloved and I thank You. I trust in You. With You, I am in security in spite of the attacks from my enemy.”
Wednesday 19 February 1964
– Mimi: “I am so happy to receive You this morning! You alone can help me. I beg You, in the name of Our love, come to my aid. I feel so alone and abandoned. My enemy doesn’t stop tormenting me. Ô Spirit of Love, enlighten me to discover the truth when my enemy disguises himself as an angel of light to deceive me. And this is what he says when he imitates the voice of my Beloved:
– Satan: “My dear little spouse whom I love so much, there is an obstacle to our love. This is the reason why I cannot come to fetch you. In the interest of your little soul, you must destroy all the writings that are full of lies, falseness inspired by pride. The souls have all they need with my Gospel and the Holy Spirit is always there to help them. If you don’t put all this in order, you will be judged more severely for in these writings, you mocked God, placing me on the same level as yourself with your intimacy that I hate. You compromised the Holy Spirit and ridiculed My Mother. Yes, my dear little girl, your pride is going to lose you. If you only knew the number of souls you are going to trouble and lead into error. All I can do to help you for the last time by speaking to you as I do, I ask you to remain silent… This way, you will deserve my forgiveness on condition that you obey and destroy the writings and don’t do it again.”
– Mimi: “Thank You, my Beloved for Your help. I confided in my director. He immediately discovered the truth.”
– Jesus: “My dear little G… your enemy is raging. He hates you. By asking you to destroy the writings, he wants to destroy Our love, Our intimacy and the good that is happening to souls. In his pride, he thought he had found a good weapon. Fear not! You will be judged by Us on your love and your obedience to Our representative. My Beloved, to show Us your love, your obedience to Us, continue to write for Our greater glory.”
Thursday 20 February 1964
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I can’t go on! Come to my aid! Come close to me! If I could rest but a few hours. You know, my Beloved, without You I can do nothing, I am nothing. The closer I want to come to You, it seems the farther I am. Yes, I am afraid. I am afraid of dying, I fear judgment. In the state I am in, everything is dark around me. There seems to be a thick wall between Us. I am ungrateful, unkind to speak like this. I am so unworthy of Your love, of Your favors. Consider my misery. I cannot hide anything from You. I suffer from this state I am in! I do not have the strength to do battle. The cross is crushing me and yet, I must continue to walk with You and tell myself that You are with me, that You are present in me, that the state I am in is willed by God to make me atone, merit. This demands an effort from me to hang onto You, to believe.
Everything is emptiness in me, after having received everything from You. It is martyrdom not being able to express my gratitude. At certain moments, I would like to remember all that You have done for me, Your love, Your intimacy, but it’s the contrary that takes place in spite of my good will. I only have my sins before my eyes… I would like to hear Your gentle voice speak to me about love, mercy, confidence and all I hear is my enemy blaspheming against You, insulting me, threatening me. He laughs about his apparent victory saying:
– Satan: “Look at me closely. I am king and master of the situation. Your God can do nothing for you. Why hang onto Him? He hates you and has rejected you forever. This is all you have merited with your life as a victim. What has it given you to want to love Him, to follow Him?
Even today, you are too proud to admit that I was right. No, you persist in saying the contrary. What is your faith worth in such a state?”
– Mimi: “My God, I believe, I hope, I expect everything from You, ô Blessed Trinity. Please give me the strength to believe and to love, to offer everything up.”
Friday 21 February 1964
– Mimi: “This morning, we are beginning a triduum to thank God for all He has given us and also to render homage to Our Gentle Mother of heaven for her special protection She has given us from the beginning. On the occasion of my director’s birthday, I was able to receive communion. I was so happy! Ô my God, shower on him Your blessings.
In spite of his 82 years, he is doing his utmost to please You. It is he who thought of offering You a triduum of thanksgiving and love. Watch over him, his health and his ministry. You know how great is his ideal for You. With You, he helped direct my poor little soul. He taught me to know You, love You and serve You in love and suffering according to Your Holy Will. He attached me solidly to the cross with Your Divine Son, my Beloved. Yes, my little soul cost You dearly and him as well! How many prayers, sacrifices were offered in my behalf! My debt of grattidue is so great!”
– Jesus: “My dear little spouse, have no fear. From the beginning, I have kept him near My Divine Heart. He has been faithful in following Me and has been united to this paternal Will of Our Father over him. During his ministry, he has never thought about himself, his comfort. He has never calculated with Us, nor with suffering accepted out of love. At certain moments, he had a heavy cross to bear, but with courage, he continued to serve Us. He did not look for honors, pleasures, comforts. His only consolation has been in Us and Our intimacy is his strength and joy. Trials are for him graces and the cross is his only hope. My Beloved, it is by a special grace that We have chosen him to direct your little soul.
He has fulfilled his mission well since you will be his sacerdotal coronation for Our greater glory. The direction of a victim soul isn’t always easy, but with Us… nothing is impossible. Pray a lot for those who are in charge of souls, especially for Our dear apostle Father Paul Mayer s.j.”
Saturday 22 February 1964
– Mimi: “Second day of our triduum of thanksgiving. In spite of my spiritual aridity, I am happy to receive You. However, with the grace of God, the help of the Holy Spirit and of my director, the prayers of my little sisters of the Team, I succeed in offering everything out of love. My Beloved is hiding. He seems so far away. I miss Him terribly. The 2nd of February was a great joy and at the same time a terrible affliction for my poor little soul that is pining after You, my Beloved, my Jesus whom I love.
– Jesus: “Thank you, My Beloved, for telling Me that you love Me. Do you see that with the teachings of the Holy Spirit, you are learning about love, suffering and joy with desolation? The spiritual night you are experiencing during these sombre days console Us, show Us your love. It is a degree of spiritual immolation. Yes, to give Us everything out of love, even your spirit, your will, your consolations, your joys, your sorrows, your doubts, your great temptations that are more frequent, in order to give you greater merit for souls, for the success of the Ecumenical Council. Out of love and to help you more in attaining your ideal, to attach you solidly to the cross, We allow you to undergo many sufferings, yes, physical and moral sufferings with trials. You know, my Beloved, on Sunday evening when your little heart was enduring loneliness, this weakness came from Me. I wanted you to experience a little of My agony.
I chose the moment when you were alone… this choking, this lack of air… this little heart that was so weak became frightened with fear, the fear of dying alone, abandoned by everyone. It was almost apparent death, not being able to ask in any way for human help. A time of trial… I consoled you. ”
Sunday 23 February 1964
Feast of the Transfiguration of Jesus
– Mimi: “Thank You, my God, for helping us make this beautiful triduum. It was good to receive You in Holy Communion. In the state of spiritual aridity, I wanted to understand the real sense of the transfiguration of my baptized soul. I could not even remove the veil that was hiding this truth.
My Beloved, You know the desire that I have to know You even more, to penetrate more intimately into Your life, but today I ask of You to renounce these spiritual joys though legitimate for a victim soul. Therefore, I accept to give back everything to You: my will, my spirit, my desires. Receive everything as if they were acts of love, of contrition, of thanksgiving.”
– Jesus: “My dear little spouse, to understand the real meaning of My Transfiguration, like Myself, you will experience three transfigurations: the first one was the day I chose you as My little spouse. Everything in your spiritual life was transfigured. Your little soul that had been so sombre became so radiant by Our presence, our Divine presence: your spirit that was preoccupied became free, your will so unsteady became strong, courageous in moments of hardship. Your second transfiguration is the present moment where your life is transfigured by the loving acceptance of the cross, and your submission to the Holy Will of Our Father when He asks your director to attach you to the cross. Since then, We have been looking at you with love for suffering has transformed your soul and this luminous radiance of Our presence in you penetrates your hidden life.”
– Jesus: “You will also have a public life through your writings. You do not understand the meaning of what I am saying. No matter. Your director understands. Trust him. He is on the right path. Follow him. You will be transfigured by Our presence, by Our merciful love. Our radiance will shine upon you and on the souls you will help. The soul in the state of grace is the image of My Transfiguration.”
Monday 24 February 1964
– Mimi: “Thank You, ô Blessed Trinity for coming into me through Holy Communion. If I didn’t have this Divine presence in me, I don’t know what I would do. The temptations are so great. There is almost no respite. I feel so wicked, so hypocrite. What do you think of me, my Beloved?”
– Satan: “My dear little girl, from now on, I don’t want you to call me your Beloved. What do we have in common? I have rejected you for such a long time! Why do you want to hang onto me? Especially in the present situation. You shouldn’t even be speaking to me, nor raise your eyes on us. You are hoping against hope. My blood was wasted on you. What can I do for a soul that is damned? Your pride, your disobedience towards us will lose you.
I forbade you to write or do team work. It is a loss of time. If you had shown good will by obeying my words, I would perhaps have forgiven you, but it is too late. Your obedience to your director is nothing compared to my commands, my word. How offensive! I who am the truth. I wonder why your director persists in giving you communion, in directing you. Do you think I am happy to be in a soul possessed by another? You are so mistaken to the point of telling lies. During this time of penance, I was hoping that perhaps you would put your life in order instead of writing down lies. You would have had sufficient time to examen yourself seriously. Why does your director turn a deaf ear when you speak to him about your doubts, your fears? Don’t you understand why? It is because he fears the worst. He is afraid you will become discouraged, that you will despair. He has tried everything to help you without success.”
– Mimi: “My God, I can’t go on! In spite of it all, I believe in You. I want to believe with all my might that You love me, that Your mercy is infinite towards me, your miserable creature. Thank You for giving me the strength to do battle. I want to believe that You are present in me, and that I love You.”
Tuesday 25 February 1964
– Mimi: “My God, another day with You, with my Beloved on the cross. I would have liked to remain in bed to get my strength back, but no. Everything was in place to do the laundry and ironing. My Beloved, please help me. You know how I love to work , but today, everything repels me, tires me, annoys me. I am working anyhow, but without interest, and I say to myself, what good is there in keeping Your home clean, in order? You remain hidden! A small sign would help me so much today! Your silence makes me suffer. I miss You! I am tempted to say: why have You forsaken me?”
– Satan: “My dear little girl, you ask why God has abandoned you? It is because He has rejected you forever. Will you finally understand it? He gives you a visible sign. He does not answer. Out of pride, you persist in wanting to believe that God loves you, forgives you. You are fighting against yourself, against your will, and yet, in the bottom of your soul, you know, you sense very well that you belong to me forever. Whatever you do to try to stifle, to erase this remorse that gnaws at you when you look at your life, your sins, your little tantrums, your writings, etc., you will never be able to end our alliance. By any means, you are mine and I am keeping you for your God has rejected you and has given me the privilege of taking care of you, of speaking to you in His place. With all His power, what has He made of you? What has His Blood done for you? Even your director doesn’t understand you. He is anxious for you to die. He is tired of you. What has it given him to direct a soul that is damned?
Your God misled you when He told you He was hiding you from human eyes. It was because He was ashamed of you. I am pleased to be as important as God since you take the time to write down our conversations. Your God hides, flees from you, but I remain. Thank you for the beautiful Team work. I was there. Where was your God?”
Wednesday 26 February 1964
– Mimi: “Thank You my God for Your help. With Your grace I was able to receive communion this morning. My God, I believe, I accept! Thank You! I need You so much to tell You over and over these four phrases. Your silence makes me suffer and it is near Your dear little crucifix that I get my strength to struggle in peace and love. You alone can fill this emptiness in me.”
– Satan: “My dear little girl, my confidant whom I love. Do not tire yourself by looking at the crucifix. I ask myself about the purpose of looking at a piece of wood upon which there is someone who has been rejected by everyone because of His teaching about a love that no one wanted to accept, except for the senseless souls who want to believe in the folly of the cross.
Is it logical that a God who pretends to love a soul make it suffer? How many times did He answer intelligently to those who sought to know, to understand…? “I am speaking to you in parables”, he said.
Furthermore, He pretends to respect the freedom of souls, but He tells you not to do this or that, followed by a cortege of threats, afflictions, death penalties, eternal chastiments. In His pride, He will not admit His defeat. He blames me. Meditate on what I have just told you and I am sure you will understand. Continue to write down our conversations to make the truth known. I have no fear, I will not hide.”
– Mimi: “Ô Holy Spirit, enlighten me, please! Should I be writing what my enemy is telling me?
“Ô my Beloved, You know how much I want to cooperate with You for the salvation of souls, but if You believe that writing down the lies of my enemy could harm or worry the souls that might read these notes… Inspire me what I must do for Your greater glory.”
– Satan: “Why seek His glory? Is it glorious to have died on a cross?””
Thursday 27 February 1964
– Mimi: “My Beloved, look at my misery. Please sustain me. I need Your help to continue my journey towards You. Give me Your hand. Without You I can do nothing. With You I can offer everything out of love in order to glorify Our Father and save souls.”
– Satan: “Poor little girl! What good is there to want to touch the heart of your God by your pleas, your prayers, your tears. He cannot and will not do anything for you. He cannot even contradict you. He is jealous of me, of my victory over souls. All that is needed is a simple suggestion, a small temptation… Souls accept everything without arguing with me. They obey without constraint because I give them something they can enjoy, benefit for their own satisfaction and in every field. It is so easy for me and there is no shortage of occasions. I don’t need to beg for love, to shed tears, tears of blood, to search, to wait after souls. His doctrine is not like mine: Many are called, few succeed. For me it is: Many succeed thought few are called. For the souls who want to follow Him are senseless, foolish. I don’t need this category of souls to give me glory.”
– Mimi: “My God, have pity on me! I ask Your forgiveness for having to write down all these lies, these blasphemies. How anxious I am for You to return, to hear Your gentle, consoling and encouraging voice. This is trying… With You, I accept out of love, but, between Us, I would rather write down Our conversations than hear the voice of my enemy whom I hate.”
Friday 28 February 1964
– Mimi: “My Beloved, I offer You everything out of love. I beg You, help me! I cannot even pray! Each time I take my rosary I don’t know what happens to me. I feel numb and fall fast asleep. I would like to chat with You, yet, I do not know what to tell You. Complete emptiness! And yet, You know what I would like to share with You. You hide, but in spite of this, I see that You are present in me. My Beloved, increase in me faith, hope, charity, love. Give me enough love to follow You till the end. With my Gentle Mother of heaven, I want to give my Fiat each day. Ô Immaculate Virgin, Mediatrix of all graces, keep me in Your motherly arms. Look upon Your child who is suffering with Your Jesus for the greater glory of God.”
– Satan: “Poor little girl, you have to be mentally ill not to understand that in spite of all these means that you take to deaden the remorse that knaws at you concerning your life of hypocrisy, your lies, even your writings… To free your conscience and deaden the interior voice that pursues you with reproaches, you imagined hearing this voice to your advantage and placed your God first with the intimacy you believed was real. You simply write what you would like your God to tell you. You admit that you feel an emptiness without Him. So I was correct in telling you that He has left you and rejected you. Do you think that calling on Mary you can obtain something? She has to obey the Father’s orders. What more than God can she do?”
– Mimi: “Thank You, my God, for giving me an enlightened Director. He advises me to continue writing to frustrate my enemy who made me doubt the writings, Our conversations.”
Saturday 29 February 1964
– Mimi: “My Beloved, in the state I am in, I need a special grace to receive You, to adore You. My Gentle Mother of heaven, look upon Your little girl. Speak to Your Jesus in my favor. I unite myself to Your prayer, Your adorations before the Divine Majesty. You alone can speak to Him with love, respect. I trust in You, in Your intercessions. You are so powerful on the heart of God that He cannot refuse You anything. Tell Him that I love Him, that I accept His Holy Will over me. Sustain my courage! I have so little strength left.”
– Satan: “My dear little girl so loved, you are finally admitting that your strength has diminished. In spite of all the warnings I have given you, you still persist in remaining in error. From all eternity it is written that you will die in my arms. We understand one another so well and it honors me that you write down our conversations. It is a good way of penetrating directly into credulous minds. I am repeating that your God is jealous of me, of my beauty, of my strength. Everything was so pure. I did not know about the malice of sin. He, the Almighty, out of vengeance, and regretting having made me so beautiful, placed this revolt that I ignored within me. Having succumbed, He rejected me without taking the time to listen to me. Where was His justice? His infinite Mercy? Now, He wants to draw souls to Him by telling them that He is a just and merciful God. Do you think this was fair to His Son to make Him suffer and die on a cross for the mistake He had made towards me?
Meditate on what I have just told you, and if the Holy Spirit is intelligent, so strong, let Him answer you. Ask the question to your director, this priest so enlightened to direct your soul! Do you believe that Father Paul Mayer s.j. will be able to answer, to prove the contrary to me?”
